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| Monday, May 1st, 2006 | | 6:15 pm |
Well I'm sorry I haven't updated here in ages but I kinda got obsessed wiht myspace! oppsies. check otu my page and add me if your on there.. www.myspace.com/sarahbelle_80/ | | Wednesday, March 15th, 2006 | | 6:18 pm |
Well, I didn't have much time to write before but now I have a chance!
Everything has changed since I first moved here. I live in a new apartment, I now teach kindergarten, and I have different friends. It's quite strange!!!
I'm sooo excited for the summertime. I'm going to go to Thailand for one month and then head home! I'm also super pumped cause my parents are going away for the month of August so I get the house to myslef! woot woot!! It will give me some time to settle in and maybe have a party! *he he he!* I'm just sooo looking forward to coming home. It's only 3 months until I'm finished!!
I know it will be hard coming home...but yay home.. Canada with all it's snow and coldness and space and tim hortons and friendly genuine people :D :D :D
Kindergarten is really tough. The kids are much more open and affectionate but they don't know anything! They don't know English and they don't know how to deal with sitting in a desk and learning for an entire day...
One good thing I've been experiancing is feeling more spiritual. Being alone has been good for me because I can just focus on growing. I had this strange dream the other night about a cicada. I talked about it with a couple of my Korean friends and they had 2 things to say. One..I used to collect the empty shells when I was child... so it has something to do wiht my childhood and hence is very deep. two...before cicadas become adults, it takes 6 years of growing underground before they emerge and spilt open and can fly. Therefore, It takes time to build up what you are going to do with your life.. and it's like steps. For a bit, you may head straight up, but then you plateau.... and stay where you are until you build up again :D
I applied for a program at Mohawk College...and apparently there are 230+ applicants and 80 spaces!! Wish me LUck!! I really hope I get in!!!!!!!!!!!
BYeee!
Sarah Current Mood:  sleepy and hungry | | 2:49 pm |
This is sooo cool!!I'm gunna try this forsure!! I didn't write it and I can't remember the website. :D -Abundance checks are a tool we can use to create more abundance in our lives. They are written within 24 hours after a New Moon. Surprisingly, you really don't even need to believe that the check will work when you write it. You will however be amazed at the results, as you will see increased abundance in your life, in some life area. It is not always financial, but certainly in an area that you need. There is a traditional manner, which has been handed down, that must be followed. If you do not have a checking account you can draw a check on a piece of paper and fill it out the same way--the results will be the same, more abundance for you. Here's how to do them: Within 24 hours after a New Moon, take a check from your check book. Where it says "Pay to," write your name. In the little box on the same line where you would fill in a dollar amount write "Paid in full." On the line underneath your name, where you would write out a dollar amount, write "Paid in full." Sign the check : "The Law of Abundance." Do not put a date on the check. Do not write a specific dollar amount in the check. Put it in a safe place and forget about it. The Universe will take it from there. Many people are skeptical about trying this until they do it. After the first time they realize the power of these checks and do them routinely every month! Try it yourself and see! Write it down in your agenda - share it with your friends!- Current Mood:  busy | | Monday, March 6th, 2006 | | 6:28 pm |
toxic people=toxic emotions
Here I am once again with another dissapointed in people post. I figured out it's one person in particular, a person that claimed to be a great friend. She has been a good friend in a lot of ways but a shitty friend in other ways. She made plans with me on Saturday to meet up. But, I hear from our friend Mike that she's not coming. She didnt' even have the kindness to tell me that she was not attending!! I heard it through someone else. She left me alone pretty much except for Mike who had had no money and pretty much expected me to pay for his evening. He didn't even say thank you!!!! He also wanted to leave as soon as the band was over while I would have liked to stay. My other friends also ditched me that night! Anyways, my main point is that I'd rather just be alone than be treated like a piece of shit!! I don't need people in my life that are going to make me feel anxious and sad all the time!! I'm going to take a break from her for awhile! This is hard to accept because sometimes even when someone hurts you you still want to be around them. My time in Seoul has been soo hard. People just aren't as invested in a friendship as they are at home. It's so impermanant here and that is sometimes really depressing. Everyone is coming and going. But, I've learned some valuable lessons and that I have to worry about my life first. It's a sad truth that often other people will let you down. The only person I can really depend on is me! Current Mood:  hungryCurrent Music: bossa house and breaks... | | Thursday, March 2nd, 2006 | | 6:32 pm |
You'll get used to it...
Well. It's been a strange time the last couple of weeks. Sooo much has happened it's so strange!! The biggest thing is that I moved. My school sold my old place so they told me I had to move. It's much much much smaller than my old place and at first, I really hated it. But, it's better now. I also started teaching Kindergarten today. It was pretty crazy because these little dudes have waaaay more energy then a lot of the kids I teach. Plus they have nooo idea what I'm saying! It was pretty exhausting but they were so cute. They all wanted to hold my hand and sit near me! *awww!* But, that's also pretty overwhelming when 8 or 10 of them all do it at the same time!!!!! ALso, I lost my tounge ring!! I bought a new one but it's too long!!! So, hence the title of my entry because everything around me is changing and I sometimes have a hard time dealing with change, especially when it's all at once like this. I was feeling kinda cranky last week because of the pressure to move and stuff.. but this week has just been getting used to stuff :D I also got a really lovely surprise on friday night. This guy that I thought just didn't call me came back from his vacation and called me :D I was verry happy to hear from him.. *hee heee!!!* well, gotta jet!!! Current Mood:  between exhausted and hyper | | Tuesday, February 21st, 2006 | | 1:48 pm |
PEOPLE SUCK!!!!!!
I really am soo pissed of that people just don't care about other people sometimes. I am constantly let down and it really hurts. I don't think that they realize exactly what they are doing... I know I take it too personally and it's a big problem I have. But friends aren't supposed to let you down. Maybe my expectations are too high and I just shouldn't care about what other peopel are doing. But when it effects me how can I not care. I love how people say they won't let you down and then the next day they just don't care. I constantly go out on a limb for people and all they ever seem to do is slap me in the face. (note: this is a huge generalization) I feel sometimes that peopel just don't care about me. I think this is my fault, like maybe the way I look at other people is just messed up... i dunooo......... on another note, Korean green tea is soo fricken good. Current Mood:  aggravatedCurrent Music: Bebel Giliberto- So nice | | Wednesday, February 15th, 2006 | | 2:04 pm |
I was in starbucks a few days ago and I noticed a big sign on the counter area. It was celebrating the fact that Coffee is full of antioxidents and North Americans get the most antioxidents from drinking coffee. Well that's good news because I drink at least 2 coffees a day. BUT...Serioulsy we have a problem. We don't get the right nutriants from good foods like Soy and Green tea ect. We get it from coffee!! *crazy* :) Current Mood:  contentCurrent Music: Jack Johnson-better when we're together | | Friday, February 10th, 2006 | | 2:34 pm |
oh my God.. I was walking to work this morning and turned a corner, only to come across 4 chickens just hanging out on the street! WTF! *crazy contry* Current Mood:  shocked | | Wednesday, February 8th, 2006 | | 1:59 pm |
My friend Soo-Young left today to go to work in Bali at Club Med for a year! I already miss him soooo much. GOODBYE MY FRIEND!!!!! Current Mood:  sad | | Tuesday, February 7th, 2006 | | 1:50 pm |
| You Should Be A Cancer | 
What's good about you: you're incredibly kind, caring, and generous
What's bad about you: you can be too moody and impossible to understand
In love: you enjoy wining and dining the object of your affection
In friendship, you're: likely to depend on other friends for emotional support
Your ideal job: historian, marine biologist, or religious figure
Your sense of fashion: you dress to match your mood
You like to pig out on: classic home cooked meals, like mac and cheese |
I find the above funny because I've always thought I should be a cancer :D I had the fricken STRANGEST dream last night. It was almost like a weird horror movie. So, I went to visit this house and stay the night with some friends or maybe it was a retreat or something.. I don't really know. BUT my friend KevO was there in the dream. So we deciede to watch a movie, and as we're watching people get up to leave. And we find out this house is really f*cked up. People go into rooms and disappear. One guy actually comes back and tells us that he walks into a room and there was some scary disfigured man and the room was dark and dank and terrifying. So we think that it's haunted. But, somehow we figure out it's a portal and when you close the door you are transported into another place. This dream was especially strange because it wasn't from my point of view, it was from an outside perspective. I almost always have dreams from the frist person point of view. So, we all deciede just to not close doors and we'll be fine. Well before we wake up a guy comes in and closes the door and he's gone.... After we wake up, We are all relieved that we are all Ok and we made it through the night without being transported into God knows where...KevO grabs his things to wash up for the morning, and I think he didn't know or he adsentmindedly closes the door and all of the sudden we're gone. we end up on some street, and I walk down some steps and I know they seem familar...(see this part was in my perspective..) So I'm with some other guy and we're like....Hey There's KevO! and he's walking around this place all confused with his grooming kit and like a towel. So we deciede to To go get some coffee or beer or something... This is when I wake up. I realize after we wake up that there where things in the dream that told me this place was familar...But I didn't know this in the dream! Man, it was like a movie!! I can't stop thinking about it. Another thing that is really really wierd is that in the mayan calander, yesterday was a portal day... and my dream was about portals. (it's a bit hard to explain but if U want me to I will) It just totally blows my mind. Also, as I'm leaving to go to work, I look out the window and it's snowy! man, how strange!!!!! Oh yeah, one more thing. On saturday night I went out with a bunch of friends. One of them is a guy who i've known for ages and went to highschool and middle school with. So, I've had like a wierd half crush on him for a little while. So, he kissed me on Sat night and it was pretty nice :D *hehe blush* But i texted him and he hasn't answered me. I don't know if he's not getting the texts or just not answering.... bah!! Current Mood:  confusedCurrent Music: Kinnie Starr-e*merged | | Thursday, February 2nd, 2006 | | 6:25 pm |
It seems like nothing and everything happens at the same time.. So, the guy that I was 'seeing' turned out to suck. He said he was coming home from holidays last week...I called him and no answer. My weekend really sucked because I knew something was wrong and I felt anxious and sad. I still haven't heard from him so I'm back to being single but feeling happy. I'd rather be alone than sad and pissed off!! I'm only here for another 5 months so I'm just gunna give up for my own sanity. I've also found out some strange revelations about myself that I was kinda surprized at. Everyone has things they don't want to know about themselves...But I feel like I needed to know these things to move on in my life. I'm really trying to focus on the fact that I cause my own suffering and I can change it. This is what spending A LOT of time alone does to you.... I've also had the feeling that I want to get married. This is sooo strange. It's like a switch just turned on all of the sudden!! So, I'm pretty sure I'm going to go home after this year is over. I'm just kind of sick of the way Korean people see western women, esp 'bigger' western women. It's hard enough in Canada but it's even harder here. Korean women are much smaller! I have felt very ugly ever since I arrived here. I'm also kinda wierd looking so that doesn't help at all. I just want to go home.......(but not in a bad way) Plus, I can always come back if I change my mind which will prob. happen knowing me... bye! Current Mood: hungry | | Tuesday, January 17th, 2006 | | 4:51 pm |
sigh, *I've got the mid-week bllluuuessssssss* I'm so sleepy from the weekend still...I'm so bad at going to bed early. In fact, I think the concept has left my mind. I lost my phone on sat. night! But, my friend sent a text in Korean to my phone and a nice person found it and called her. I got it back today. fewf!!!!! I guess it's different with cellphones but I have never gotten back something I've lost before. I'm so lucky. I was mostly upset about everyone's numbers being lost. I've also been feeling so fat lately. I bought some new jeans and they don't fit right! baaah! Korea is not the place to buy jeans unfortunatly.... oh well... she said they would strech... well my brain is too stupid right now to write anything else........ bye! Current Mood: sleepyCurrent Music: We belong together-mariah Cary going thru my head..why!!! | | Tuesday, January 10th, 2006 | | 5:01 pm |
i'm settling into my new roommate free life. It's really nice! Its so nice to be able to do whatever you want in your place. I also find it really peaceful, it's your own personal get away from the world. I've been trying to clean it and decorate it to suit my style! the only thing is it's too big for me right now! I don't have enough stuff to fill it! It's strange cause I'm so used to living in a huge culttery mess. It will be really good for me because sometimes I really I'm going to get some fabric for the lights cause they're all florescent! *ewww*!!! and I need a new shower curtain cause the one I have now is nasty!! I'm going to have a party on Sat. night! woohoo :D The guy that I like went on a hoilday for 2 weeks... sigh. I hope it will be alright when he comes back :! he sure is a sweetie though.. *teehee!* dating a korean boy is fun!! *^-^* Current Mood: contentCurrent Music: Jazzanova remixes | | Friday, January 6th, 2006 | | 2:05 pm |
I am such a paranoid knob freak. I texted Hyokki last night and this morning. He never replied back. BUT then he did reply this afternoon with a text and a phone call. I was so upset and nervous because I thought he wasn't going to answer back at all. I really have to work on this. EVERY SINGLE guy that I like I get upset and nervous and anxious about them. This guy is totally sweet. I'm very smitten with him. He bought me mittens!! LOL!! Smitten mittens!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaa! He calls me Dancing Queen! I could go on and on about this guy... baaah it just proves the fact that I'm sooo nerdy. Also, I'm going to have my appartment to myself! woohoo! I get a 2 bedroom place!! My roommate is moving out because he's staying in Korea for another yr but he wants to live by himself. Sooo, I get to keep the big place! I'm going to make it much prettier! I've never lived by myself before, so it's going to be kinda strange but I'm also pretty excited cause i've wanted my own appartment for a little while now. well cheerio!!! sarah Current Mood:  retardedCurrent Music: 7 days in sunny june-Jamiroquai | | Tuesday, January 3rd, 2006 | | 1:53 pm |
2006 is here...
Well, happy new years friends! I've been feeling a bit better after that big vent. I had a great new years actually :D I had a short vacation from work which was much needed, even though it was only 4 days including the weekend. Me and my friend Sarah stayed at a temple. I stayed for 2 nights and she stayed for one. We also met this really sweet girl Cesa from California and the 3 of us hung out together! When we first got to the temple I was a bit scared because they were very strict and you had to follow this crazy hard schedule. They also said if we miss morning chanting (4am) we had to do 3000 bows. luckily we didn't have to do 3000 bows!!! This temple was also pretty neat because they practiced a zen martial art called Sunmundo. we learned a little bit of it. I want to take it. the Temple also had a Buddha carved in the rocks and a cave Dharma hall..it was really beautiful. It was also in the mountains. Cesa and I also got to go horseback riding with the grandmaster of the temple! that was really special. I feel so lucky to be able to visit temples while I am here. On new years eve, Sarah and I met up with my friends Kevin, Andrew and Sarah and a bunch of their frisbee friends. We rang in the new year in a park and shot off a bunch of fireworks and sparklers! I met the cutest Korean boy and hung out with him until 3 the next day! (he he!) his name is Hyokki...he doesn't speak English too well but he seems to understand me pretty well. He's such a sweetheart... Well, We went to a Drum n Bass club. that was awesome. I really enjoyed the music there a lot. I didn't make any real New Years resolutions except go to Thailand! SO I'm making plans to head there after my contract finishes at my school. I'm going to see Hyokki tomarrow too. Hopefully we'll find something to talk about. ha ha ha. Current Mood:  happyCurrent Music: Git up, Get out-Outcast | | Tuesday, December 27th, 2005 | | 2:05 pm |
beware.. big vent....
I'm so frustrated these days. I'm frustrated with relationships or the lack thereof. For some reason I'm just angry about everything to do with that word. If your a couple i'm pissed off at you. ( no offence, it's just me being crazy.) I hate how I feel like for me to be happy I have to be dating someone. I hate how you have to act a certain way to attract someone. I hate how you have to dress a certain way to attract someone. I hate the attitude of many guys who just care about the way a girl looks. I hate how couples always ahve to be touching. it's like their rubbing it in your face and saying I'm better than you. your single. you suck. I hate how there are holidays celebrating coupledom and none celebrating singledom. My friend told me that I should act more 'naughty' and slutty and I would find a boyfriend really fast. That is sooo disgusting. I know he was just trying to help but I am not acting 'slutty' to make a guy like me. yes I am cynical and bitter right now but I really don't care! I'm just sick and tired of everyone being obsessed with being in a relationship!!!!!!!! Current Mood: aggravatedCurrent Music: feist- mushaboom | | Friday, December 23rd, 2005 | | 5:38 pm |
thanks techie girl.. I think I'm addicted to these things!!!!! -sarah | | Monday, December 19th, 2005 | | 1:41 pm |
I feel totally ridiculous :D I am very happy all of the sudden, with no rhyme or reason. I don't understand how I can feel a bit down in the dumps one day then happy as a clam the next day with nothing really changing... I'm crrrazzzy. I think i've accepted the fact that Chirstmas in Korea is just not the same as at home. It's strange but it's ok, ya know? I'm here to experiance new things as wierd as it is not being home it's alright. It's kind of nice being able to do whatever I want on Chirstmas. And if all else fails, it's just one day. Plus, there are lots of people who are in the same boat as me here... so it's kind of comforting in a way! I got a pretty new winter coat! it's cordoroy and sorta a browny-purplish-burgandy colour. it's purrdy. It's really Korean haha :D I saw this really awesome DJ on sat. night.. his name is Peter Krugur. He was sooo good. It's been pretty cool cause I have seen a lot of big dj's here, most of them House djs. I'm really starting to dig house music a lot. But anyways.. the FUNNIEST thing ever happened. They have these really strange Santas here that stand about 4 feet tall and they sorta dance back and forth. So me and Sarah and Andrew leave the club in our drunken state of mind and I see this Santa.. and they kinda freak me out and at this point I was really angry at him. So, We start making fun of the Santa, and Andrew just punches him and his head goes rolling off down the street. The doormen call the club owner and they're all really pissed off! Just sooo funny.. I felt quite bad after but it really was hilarious :D Last thing.. I'm going to do a temple stay on New Years Eve. I think it will be really cool to spend the night being peaceful in a temple rather than partying, cause I can party anytime really. I think this will be really special and something I can't do in Canada. My mom sent me organic fair trade coffee... oooh man I had that for breakfast today and it was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good. I miss good coffee. I have been drinking starbucks coffee cause I can't really find good coffee except for there. I miss organic fair trade coffee soo much, it's soooo much better!!!!! (plus better for workers and the earth!!) well this is long :D bye! Current Mood:  bouncyCurrent Music: blackalicious | | Wednesday, December 14th, 2005 | | 1:39 pm |
life sucks ass sometimes!
arg! First thing...I found out that my house in Canada got broken into. They took my mom's jewelry(a lot of it was antique and belonged to my late grandmother and great aunt and can't be replaced) My little brother's guitar that he got for his birthday, my dad's big fancy camera, their digital camera and a bunch of our DVDs. It just makes me so mad that some guy can just come into our house and steal things that mean so much to my family. I just want to kick that guy realllly hard. I also have 'acute gastritus'...it's some stomach ache thingee. I woke up on monday morning with a horible stomach ache and slept the entire day and didnt go to work. i am taking medication but I still feel really craptacular. I also have no real appetite, when I try to eat I can't really and i'm hungry. plus I can't have any caffine!!! I'm also still suffering from a bacterial infection I've had for over 3 months and nothing seems to be able to cure it. I'm also just generally pissed off at my roommate, i'm just tired of his anti social self centered tendendies. It just really gets to me sometimes!!! And it's Chirstmas time, I really just want to go home and celebrate Chirstmas with my family. I miss home sooo much.. :( I know if I was home I would be able to get rid of all my stupid sicknesses. *siigggh* :( *sad* Current Mood:  grumpyCurrent Music: digable planets | | Wednesday, November 23rd, 2005 | | 2:39 pm |
I had this AMAZING dream last night and I just can't stop thinking about it. I drempt about Jonas again, i dream of him soo often these days. It's so strange. But this time was different! I usually just dream about him in an every day sory of way... So, I drempt that he was married, but married to a magical butterfly-woman. She was a butterfly but she was also a woman and was a shape-shifter. I was really angry and jealous because she was amazingly beautiful. I saw her flying and I wanted to kill her because she was just a butterfly...Her wings were amazing too, all different colours magenta and turquiose and orange and blue. Then she turned into the woman and she said something to me and I can't remember what it was.. but I didn't kill her... I think this dream symbolizes my need to let go and move on from holding on to Jonas.. It was kind of exciting, I have never had a butterfly in my dreams before.. :D Current Mood:  amazedCurrent Music: blackalicious going through my head |
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